|I loved being at the Mezrab Storytelling School. |
But focus on the handwriting for now.
I didn't even finish my IQ test in the final year of primary school. So my score was 128. What would it have been, had I been faster at writing?
DysgraphiaSome children are slow at writing because of some mishap in the cerebellum or vestibular system. This causes problems with fine motor skills such as brushing teeth and writing. Like the conductor has been handed a sledge hammer to conduct his orchestra.
These children produce illegible handwriting and are called 'dysgraphic'. My writing is pretty neat, so I was labeled "slow".
Sensory experts will tell you that a test for sensory processing issues is not about
* what you can do but about * how much it costs you to do that .
From that point of view I might be called dysgraphic. Especially considering the fact that I avoid movement and sitting on chairs, a sign my vestibular system is not ideal.
Yet I believe I wrote slowly because of ... nightmares.
|The boy of my dreams 😓|
In my dreams, I had to walk past a row of children (all drawn in ink) standing along the school fence. They were calling me names and saying mean things. It hurt like hell, but it was the only way to reach my home.
Like it was in reality.
The bullying continued at primary school. In my dreams the row of children was exchanged by numbers and letters chasing me, a small sign that could not outrun them. I rang door bells and shouted at open windows to ask adults for help, but they told me to just play with these 'friends'. Then they shut their windows and closed the curtains.
|Above the angry signs,|
below the kind ones
I hated seeing an evil looking 5 or an angry 3 in my note book, so I wrote slowly, to make sure the curves were nice and round. Making friendly numbers and letters that did not get me down.
Apart from that, doing calculus was so boring that I would let the angry [slip of the pen] and friendly numbers have conversations.
No wonder I had a hard time finishing my sums before break, let alone my IQ test.
Hmmm 😋, I remember from this test that we had to write a story and I silently reveled in that. I wrote about a seal all alone on a floe, floating on the sea. It was happy, in spite of its loneliness.
GraphologistI wonder what a graphologist would say about a handwriting that developed from having nightmares.
Here's a sample:
|All friendly ways of writing|